Monday, March 12, 2007

Latest Thoughts

I'd been working illegally for the past 2 months. I wasn't keen on the school but they said I could work there illegally since no one was able to give me a visa. It's a little complicated but anyways, I had a visa application approved and was pretty upset about the whole thing. Anyhow, I went to Japan for a last minute visa run. I was upset about most of that, too. They told us around 5pm the night before we left. I worked until 1030 and was expected to be ready to go by 5am. I went with my co-worker and the receptionist from the school because she knew some Japanese. It felt like we were being babysat for the most part. Like we wouldn't be able to handle going to Japan by ourselves. I was exhausted the whole time and didn't see anything. At least I got 2 days off work.

Work has been getting worse daily. I'm excited about quitting. I still don't know what I'm going to do afterwards. I was thinking about going to Africa but it doesn't really appeal to me anymore. I'm not in the mood to make new friends at all. I'm not in the mood for anything really. The prospect of vagabonding doesn't seem so bad to me anymore and I'm reconsidering moving to Sweden or France for awhile. I don't know why the prospect of staying in one place for an indefinite amount of time scares me so much. Seems really strange. I thought it was what I wanted but I'm reluctant to commit to the idea. I've also been avoiding thinking about it for the most part which is really strange considering how much I'm looking forward to leaving the ESL world behind. I guess it's in tune with my indecision and inconsistency at least.

My schedule is a bit strange now. I don't start work until 6pm twice a week. Maybe I'll have to go somewhere some afternoon and think about things.